chronicles

for some strange reason it is so hard for me to let go
to think that something doesn't go my way.
i know everything can't but when it is about my heart/feelings i want perfection

i want to be totally completely happy and content.
with you. (with her) and nothing can go wrong right?

i am very optimistic in life, and people around me know this.
they also know that i rarely ever commit to a girl because i am scared
scared of being hurt, of hurting someone, of caring too much, of not treating her right.
did i do something wrong? was i not good enough? am i ugly or not attractive to her?
these are questions that will never go away. i want answers... before you leave me for good.
if only i could do more for her.